I have made some edits to my “About the Author” page and my “FAQs” page to better reflect some of the changes that have happened in my life, although it will not reveal as much as you might wish it to.
It’s been awhile since I’ve blogged, can you tell I got busy 
I’ve been rather busy the last few days between work & I’ve been adding in some personal time as well, I’ve decided that while I still am active on twitter that I have been doing it more on the go so I can stay away the computer a little more than I have and get some reading, personal reflection and work out in and it has been quite successful. However, I do miss being on the computer getting all of the news of the day, so it’s been hard to feel like I’m not as informed as I once was and I’m finding I have to rely on some of my close friends to keep me supplied with links and blogs so I know what kind of things to be aware of.
I almost had a problem on yesterday (Wednesday) when it came to my goals of eating better & working out every day as I had completely forgotten that I was now working Wednesday night after our departmental meetings and would only have about 30-45 mins to grab something to eat. I did not pack dinner as I had only packed lunch, so I had to improvise. But, despite the fact that the other faculty went up to the food court to get some bad fast food type stuff, I snacked on a couple of granola bars I had in my office which held me over until 10pm when I was able to get a little more at home. And, the workout was okay because we spent the evening destroying stuff at our storage building, so I moved around a bunch of stuff and worked my upper body muscles working with a sledge hammer, so I felt like I had done enough work to count towards my workout for the evening.
Tonight, I ended up going to a restaurant and read almost an entire chapter in my book during dinner. My waitress was being very sweet to me, despite the fact that she probably thought I was a total nerd for reading while eating. She already knew I was a professor since she seems me around the building, but here I was alone at a booth reading, only stopping to get my meal started and going back to my book to read as I eat. And of course, my twinkling eyes and smile when I look up probably doesn’t help, especially since I tend to look people in the eyes with a dreamy look..lol. But, anytime I’m doing that, I leave a nice tip on top of my already good tip, so it’s all worth it (God, I just read what I wrote, I’m way too much of a romantic for my own good, it’s going to get me into trouble one day I’m sure, though sometimes trouble can be fun, just be prepared if you ever sit near me and I start looking into your eyes..I swear….)
How do I transition from that.. hmm..
I talked to my mother for over an hour tonight as well, even though she interrupted my reading, I was happy to talk to her. She is doing well, she’s going camping this weekend for some reason, don’t remember why though it’s probably something to do with my youngest brother. The main reason she was calling was to keep me up to date on my father. He has been given the go and has been scheduled for surgery at the end of September in order to start removing things infected by cancer. The radiation and chemotherapy were successful enough that he feels better and they feel he is reading to have the next stop of the process. He’ll find out after the surgery if there is a chance the cancer has spread or not, so that will be one of the next big things we start to hear about once we know he has made it through the surgery. It’ll be a little nerve racking for my mother I’m sure during that time and I think she is taking time off work for it. Unfortunately, it happens right when I am going to be knee deep in the final stages of the first of 3 shows. But, other than that news, everything is going well with them, so that is good.
As far as me, I’m still doing great, nothing really too much to complain about, except for the fact that the scale says I haven’t lost weight but my pants are bigger. As I went to class today, despite the fact I have a belt on I feel like I’m swimming in my clothes, so I know my body is smaller than it was, so I’m assuming I’ve added a little muscle weight. I think the last time I worked out a bunch it took me a week or two to build back up some muscle before I started dropping weight and it would drop quickly for a week or two before leveling off some, so I’m hopeful that is what will happen this time as well.
I’m really enjoying the book I’m reading and will likely go away from the computer once I’m done here to read more. I really should be reading things for classes since I am a professor and all. But, I’m finding I have little desire to read plays, books about theatre or even a discussion of going to Europe for theatre just doesn’t interest me at all. I have been doing theatre work for over 10 years now, why do I want to read about it more when there are so many other things in this world I can read? Why do I want to go to Europe to watch theatre when I could go so many other places. My department chair said we don’t want to go to China to see theatre and honestly I would. I think we are too focused on Western theatre that we miss out on all of the fun theatrical stuff found in Asia, the middle east and even in Africa. So yeah, apparently I need culture..lol.
I will be writing about my reading this weekend I’m sure, so look for that. I’ll be at a conference on Saturday during the day and have some grading and test making to start thinking about, so it’ll be a work weekend with breaks in between. I’m just glad it’s a three day weekend since I have nothing on Friday
Peace, Love & Hugs.
This post is a further answer to a question posted on a previous post entitled Truth v 2.0.
When asked by someone “what is love and is it even possible?”
In the comments, I posted my own thoughts, but I feel it is best answered by music and when I thought about love, what better music than the music that comes from one of the best movies: Moulin Rouge.
All I can say before getting to the music is that the person whom I love, they will feel like they are floating on clouds. I love like no other. I will love them until I die and beyond. I love fully and completely without question, though I am shy & sometimes I worry that I’m not doing enough. I trust my whole self to them & I give my all. I am not someone who forgets who I am, and I am not someone who feels they have to seek love from someone else. I do not cheat, I never will because I know the pain that comes from it firsthand. I never want someone whom I love to ever feel that pain. When I say the words, “I love you”. They mean something so deep within my heart that I hope you know what I am feeling.
So, below you will find three songs, each filled with love and some of the expressions and thoughts that come with it.
Come What May:
Never knew I could feel like this
Like I’ve never seen the sky before
Want to vanish inside your kiss
Every day I love you more and more
Listen to my heart, can you hear it sing?
Telling me to give you everything
Seasons may change, winter to spring
But I love you until the end of time
Come what may
Come what may
I will love you until my dying day
Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place
Suddenly it moves with such a perfect grace
Suddenly my life doesn’t seem such a waste
It all revolves around you
And there’s no mountain too high
No river too wide
Sing out this song and I’ll be there by your side
Storm clouds may gather,
And stars may collide
But I love you (I love you)
Until the end of time(until the end of time)
Come what may
Come what may
I will love you until my dying day
Oh, come what may, come what may
I will love you, Oh I will love you
Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place
Come what may
Come what may
I will love you until my dying day
Elephant Love Melody:
Ewan:
Love is a many splendored thing,
Love lifts us up where we belong,
All you need is love
Nicole:
Please don’t start that again
Ewan:
All you need is love
Nicole:
A girl has got to eat
Ewan:
All you need is love
Nicole:
She’ll end up on the street
Ewan:
All you need is love..
Nicole:
Love is just a game..
Ewan:
I was made for loving you baby,
You were made for loving me
Nicole:
The only way of loving me baby is to pay a lovely fee
Ewan:
Just one night, JUST ONE NIGHT
Nicole:
There’s no way ’cause you can’t pay
Ewan:
In the name of love
One night in the name of love
Nicole:
You crazy fool, I won’t give in to you
Ewan:
Don’t… leave me this way
I can’t survive, without your sweet love
Oh baby, don’t leave me this way
Nicole:
You’d think that people would have had enough of silly love songs
Ewan:
I look around me, and I see it isn’t so, oh no
Nicole:
Some people wanna fill the world with silly love songs
Ewan:
Well what’s wrong with that,
I’d like to know
‘Cause here I go again..
Ewan:
Love lift us up where we belong
Where eagles fly, on a mountain high
Nicole:
Love makes us act like we are fools
Throw our lives away, for one happy day
Ewan:
We could be heroes
Just for one day
Nicole:
You, you will be mean
Ewan:
No, I won’t!
Nicole:
And I… I’ll drink all the time
Ewan:
We should be lovers
Nicole:
We can’t do that!
Ewan:
We should be lovers, and that’s a fact
Nicole:
Though nothing will keep us together
Ewan:
We could steal time,
Both:
Just for one day
We could be heroes, forever and ever
We could be heroes, forever and ever
We could be heroes…
Ewan:
Just because I… will always love you
Nicole:
I…
Both:
Can’t help loving
Ewan:
You..
Nicole:
How wonderful life is
Both:
Now you’re in the world
Your Song:
My gift is my song
And this one’s for you
And you can tell everybody
That this is your song
It maybe quite simple
But now that it’s done
Hope you don’t mind
I hope you don’t mind
That I put down in words
How wonderful life is now you’re in the world
Sat on the roof
And I kicked off the moss
Well some of the verses well
They got me quite cross
But the sun’s been kind
While I wrote this song
It’s for people like you that
Keep it turned on
So excuse me for forgetting
But these things I do
You see I’ve forgotten
If they’re green or they’re blue
Anyway the thing is well I really mean
Yours are the sweetest eyes I’ve ever seen
[Allesandro- opera]
And you can tell everybody
This is your song
It may be quite simple
But now that it’s done
I hope you don’t mind
I hope you don’t mind that I put down in words
How wonderful life is now you’re in the world
I hope you don’t mind
I hope you don’t mind that I put down in words
How wonderful life is now you’re in the world
This blog post is meant to help out a friend and to help out my readers in finding her. One of my favorite blogs and friends from online, Mona, who is the blogger behind a very good blog of her own – Rebellious Arab Girl is looking for some help in developing a new website.
Are you interested in making a little bit of money?
Do you have good writing skills?
Are you someone who knows a lot about social networking, tips on how to effectively use their various tools, why you should join this or that website? Tips and tricks, pros and cons, how to avoid getting fired or not hired for a job due to it? How do you use social networking to advance a business? And many more possibilities…
It will take dedication and your time, but you will be teaming up with someone who has the skills to make it happen and in the end you will get a little bit of money in exchange for your time.
For more information or if you are interested, please surf on over to her website. Here is the blog entry asking for some writers. – http://www.rebelliousarabgirl.net/2009/07/29/searching-for-permenant-writers/
Or email her directly at rebelliousarabgirl at gmail.com
I have already volunteered my own blog to help advertise this new website when it gets launched. So, if you are one of the ones chosen for this new venture, I might be contacting you for a little information about you so that I can write up something nice for you all.
Good luck & I look forward to learning all of your tricks
I have finished archiving my old blog. It’s actually amazing to skim through your old life and see what you were going through.
I started blogging with Xanga back in 2003 until I switched to myspace as my primary blog in 2005 due to the larger privacy settings they offered at the time. I kept myspace as my primary blog until I started using wordpress this year. My archiving is due to the fact that I have decided to permanently move my blog to my self-hosted wordpress based blog that I now have & find is the best blog I have had since I started.
As I was going back through my blogging, something happened during those many years. For the first 3 years of my blogging career, I didn’t see the overall picture. I was blogging because I thought I should. There were moments when the blogging was a release of my emotions, but for the most part my blog was a way to communicate with others to let them know how I am doing and in between all of these I put in random quizzes as well as copied and pasted things I found online.
It wasn’t until sometime late 2006 when things started going sour with my ex did it start to become more. My blogging exploded in intensity and in number of entries during 2007 and every blog was longer with more depth of emotional. However, there were occasional blog posts that expressed merely emotion and nothing else:
April 18, 2007 – Wednesday 5:10 PM
fuck…
What the fuck is going on? I feel like throwing up, every few mins I break out in tears. I feel so alone, lost. I feel like everything I ever had is now gone…how can this happen?
Without proper context of the blogs around this one, you would not necessarily know what was going on within my mind & life, but as a whole I was much more connected blog post to blog post.
I started to realize that the events surrounding my ex made my blogging mature to a point where I feel more confident in my writing. I write not just to share my daily events with people, but to allow myself an outlet of expression for what is going on in my world. During 2007 through today, I have a much better understanding of my emotions, my life and my spiritual well-being and started to realize what I could do with my blogging.
Over the coming weeks, I promise I will be revealing more about who I am, who my ex was and what happened with that relationship. There are a few posts from my past that I would like to bring back up to reflect upon and to be able to see how far I have gone since then. Some of this will be hard, but I think it is necessary so I do not allow myself to fall into the same trap again. My blogging helped me get past the pain & now it will help me reflect, mature & share my experiences with others.
